When You Say It

Do you ever experience those moments where people ask for things, but kinda off hand?  Like they say they want to do things with you, but then they don't call?  So I am a perfect example, I told Bree that I would call her this week, but then never remember to.  Then when Sunday rolls around, I tell her that I will do better this week.  I have every intention of doing it, but somehow it slips my mind.

But going a little deeper, I want to explore this one.  I have a friend whom I text, he said that he wanted to see me.  I said okay, asked what we should do.  He responded that a scary movie sounded like a good idea.  I then agreed and asked what we should watch.  To which I got no answer.  Suddenly, the idea of watching a scary movie with me was no longer appealing.  But what had I done?  What made me suddenly so undesirable to be around?  

The next text proceeded with a change of subject almost 15 minutes later.  I was in such shock that I hardly could think straight.  I wondered what part of my asking what to watch had made me suddenly like the black plague.  All I wanted was to have my pants scared off of me by one of the genius' in Hollywood.  Perhaps, he meant to send the text to another girl, or didn't mean to tell me of his plans... But either way, it doesn't look good for me.

That is what caught my attention the most.  We expect people to flake on us, especially when we make plans far in advance.  I do it, you do it, and I believe we all do it.  It is something in the human programming that causes us to forget that thing which we agreed to.  But the instant change of heart is where my question lies.  How can you go from yes to no in two minutes?  

In all my confusion, I just got really down.  I don't understand how life works.  I don't often understand why it does what it does.  I sit here and have to ask these silly questions in the hopes that one day I will understand.  I look forward to a day when all things will be known 

and revealed unto me. Until then, if you have any thoughts, answers, or words of comfort please share them.  I still don't know what I did to deserve this.